Today I Saw God
Looking for Answers
Sometimes, life as a young adult can be overwhelming. Sure, I don't have children to take care of or a mortgage to pay. I barely even have bills to pay (thanks to my wonderful parents). And the day-to-day things that I deal with really aren't all that important in the grand scheme of things. But sometimes life sneaks up on you and reminds you of all those questions that you've been asked over the past few years:
"What are your career goals? How do you plan to achieve them?"
"Where do you want to settle down, buy a house, raise a family?"
"When will you get married?"
"How many kids do you want?"
"Have you started saving for retirement?"
and so on and so forth. It's easy to dodge these questions at dinner parties. A vague answer about what field you're interested in or saying that you're waiting until you're more financially stable to think about marriage, kids, etc., usually satisfies most people. But every once in awhile, when you're making weekend plans or lying in bed at night, you suddenly wonder, "What are my answers?"
Nowadays, young adults can look at social media and see exactly what everyone from high school or college is doing with their lives. I scroll through my news feeds and notice that more and more people are getting married, more and more people are buying houses, more and more people are getting impressive jobs or promotions at big companies, and I start to panic a little. Did I do something wrong along the way? Am I following the wrong path? What do I do? Why am I so behind?
This week I stumbled across an article titled, "Moses and Jesus Didn't Have Their Dream Jobs By 30, Either." I was intrigued. When life sneaks up on me, I often seek out people or articles that affirm that I'm not the only one feeling overwhelmed. I figured that this article would be like most of the ones I've read: reminding me that I started my career in a recession, confirming that a lot of people my age have had to work jobs outside of their field or below their skill level just to pay off loans and giving me just enough hope that "some day" I would get to where I wanted to be. And this article did say those things, but it also said something else:
"Maybe we should replace the question 'What are you doing when you graduate?' with 'What kind of person is God calling you to be?'"
Huh. That's an idea.
I've tried a lot of tactics when dealing with my future: ignore it, tackle it head-on, deal with it one day at a time, make a written plan, get through this weekthe list goes on. But maybe what I should be dealing with isn't my future in terms of career, family and retirement but actually in terms of what kind of person God is calling me to be.
The truth is that right now I don't know the answer to that question either. But I think that with a little more work, I might be able to figure it out. At least a little better than I can figure out pensions and health insurance. I guess all along, I've been looking for someone to tell me exactly what I need to do to get my life together, but I've been ignoring the One who has the answers. It might be time to change that.