I know (in my head) that I am forgiven. The problem is, day to day, I don’t feel that way. I am tempted all over again to give in to the stuff I just asked forgiveness for. And I feel lousy. I think, “after all Christ has done to forgive me, how come I can’t keep from sinning?” In fact, I think my sin-meter is turned up. I’m more aware of my sin.
Perhaps my problem is this: I want Christ’s forgiveness to be sin prevention. Instead, it’s a dance. And much of the time it feels like the round and round.
That letter Pastor Tom shared from the freed slave, Jourdan Anderson, to his former master, Colonel P.H. Anderson (go toTom Berlin’s facebook page to find the link) paints an amazing picture of truth set firmly in the midst of the round and round. It gives me a sense of what forgiven sounds like and what freedom feels like.
Jesus said, “If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.” John 8:31-32
And THAT makes me want to send a Valentine, to my New Master.